A Letter Written In Queer Longing

Jasmine Fetterman

I miss our walks

I miss our time spent staring at nothing and at everything
Watching the water move in and out
Watching and feeling the willow branches sway and caress as her fingers lingered across the rippling water
A cig here
A tear there
A smile most everywhere
And of course always a sparkle
A continual pricking
Breaking our skin
Forever leaving those lines and marks
Only to fade
You hold my head in your lap
You always loved my unpractical nails
I have to apologize for at this moment I have fallen off the nail biting wagon
But I promise I’ll break the habit again for you
You always traced your fingertips along my hairless thighs
And the innermost canal of my collar bone
Back and forth
Together we discovered ourselves
Together we found our old names
You made me feel the way I have always needed to feel
A feeling unknown within this life but forever familiar
You are the only one that has ever brought me flowers
Even still
They hang dry on my wall
Desperately clutching to every last petal
You always took care of me
You could always make me blush
You are the dirtiest dirt gay I have ever met
And I love it.
I miss you
I miss your touch
I miss your care
I love you deeply
With all my heart

– A love of your life


Jasmine Fetterman uses a multi-disciplinary and research based approach to explore the complex and fluid nature of identity as a universal concept throughout humanity. As an Eastern European, first generation American, they reference themes of western histories, mythologies, and aesthetics to explore politics of the queer body and its relationship to constructed space. Their desire is to create space to include and normalize queer bodies within film, media, and the art world. Focusing on the necessity of a utopic liminal/transformational space that they have labeled as queer architecture, to also question/critique the role of socio-economic class, gender structures, and hierarchies. They have shown around the West Coast, Pacific Northwest and the Southwest, most recently at the Henry Museum in 2021. They hold an MFA from the 3D4M program at the University of Washington completed in 2021.